What a morning

Last night my wife after I gave her a big orgasm with my tongue, she gave me another ruined orgasm. My balls have been really bothering me and though it wasn't a relief to my current level of frustration it helped with the ball pain. And yes I had to eat it again (and there was a lot) but again since it wasn't ruined I didn't mind. Then she dragged me into the bathroom and pissed a really nasty piss into my mouth (apparently she was really dehydrated and had been drinking really strong tea all night). She found my chocking really amusing. I came back in to her using her vibrator for a second orgasm, she had me fighting to get me tongue in around her vibrator, again really amusing her.

This morning I snuggled up and pressed my cage against her. We then made out like a bunch of high school kids. At that I suggested maybe we go in to work a little late. And maybe we could get up and I would go prep myself and when I was ready she could come down and peg me. Then I could give her an orgasm and then we could take a tub together and I would shave her legs. After which we could get ready and have a nice lunch and head to work.

At first she thought it was a ploy to get out of the cage but when I told no I did not expect it. We had talked about her starting to peg me when I was still locked. Once she was comfortable with that she was good to go. Once the morning routine was through I went down to the basement and prepared myself. My wife expects me to be one hundred percent clean when she pegs me. When I was good I called her and asked for her to give me five minutes. She said "ok" and I went and grabbed our neoprene gas mask and got it on and climbed into our sling.

She came down and said how much she liked finding me in the hood and started to do some breathe play. Then she grabbed a glove and started lubing my up and got on her harness and cock. Wow, it was an incredible time...she really pounded the crap out of me. It felt so good and was such an incredible experience, I am not sure how to express it but when she pegs me I just feel so submissive to her and being locked and knowing I was going to be allowed to cum through penile stimulation was mind blowing. She kept playing with the cage and the hood's hose and was really into it. I kept telling her how much I wanted to be her dirty bitch, and she kept saying you already are. I really thought I was going to cum but it didn't happen but it felt so incredible.

She stopped and said get my harness off me so I took the hood off and got the harness off. She went over to our liberator  and waited for me to climb between her legs (she didn't wait long). She was so wet and ready again it did not take long.

My wife kept asking if I really enjoyed it and I was like "God, YES!" I explained that when she pegs me I just feel so incredibly submissive to her. Then I turned the question because I know she is not able to cum from it (we have tried) why she likes it? Her reply was the power she feels when doing it and the dominance over me. She then said she liked it even more with the cage and that the cage made those feelings so much stronger. The rest of the morning went the way it was described above. We did have a lot of interesting discussions about where we are recently and maybe I we do a post about it some time.

Settling Up

The other night my wife looked at me and said "we are going to be settling up tonight. How many do you think you have coming?" I looked at her and said "I, honestly, think I have been pretty good." She looked at me and laughed and said "no, you have been disrespectful and have used curse words and you know I hate that. So how many do you think you have coming?"

"I guess, um, eight." Again this was meet with laugther, " I was thinking twelve." I wasn't going to argue with her but knew this was going to be hell. I found her punishment spoon (it is a really really thick solid wooden spoon we found just for this type of correction) and asked if I could walk the dogs before hand.

When I got back with the dogs I went upstairs and she said alright drop your pants and get across my lap. As she delivered all twelve strokes I was lectured about my tone and cursing. It has been several days and my butt still hurts. After she had me thank her for helping me to improve and then had me crawl in between her legs and use my tongue to please her. Then it was time to get a condom on (I cringed as that usually means I will be cleaning up my mess), after she came she said that I didn't need to cum. I begged her to please let me and luckily she was kind and did.

Afterwards she climbed off me and said "I will give you a pass tonight but from now on you will be eating your mess. That was definitely a Thank God and UGH moment all rolled into one.

Getting Back on Track

Long time without posting but there really hasn't been a lot to say in terms of FLR or chastity. But I think there have been a lot of good conversations about our needs and what each of us needs for an FLR to work.

I know a lot of people that want FLRs say that BDSM and kink is really not their motivation. And I tried to think that way but made clear I would like for it to be. I learned that it is not a want for me but a need. I really really love my wife to be in control and making the decisions and my serving her but I need the BDSM & humiliation parts to for it to be satisfying for me. There was a blog post that was about dominance versus abuse but really captured the idea that some submissive husbands need these things for the FLR relationship to be fufilling (it can be found here: http://dommewife.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-fine-line-between-domination-and.html ). My wife was a little taken aback when I showed it to her because of the abuse discussion. I had to explain that I just felt the post captured exactly what I felt that I needed these aspects and it wasn't a simple want.

My wife has really been pushing for us to get back to it. But last week really it just wasn't going to work out but I agreed to start today. Then I really hadn't heard anything more about expectations or anything. So last night I told her it was up to her if we went back to it. I couldn't emotionally get excited for it and be let down again. All she said was ok and then again I voiced some of my frustration and her response was I have given it a lot of thought and I know what I want (not telling me if we were going forward or what her plan was).

This morning I woke up with her going through my drawers and pulling out a pair of panties that I was suppose to wear today. Later in the day I thanked her and she told me to go was out the pee ice trays and that she planned on refilling them this evening. And then she told me I should plan on being in the body bag this evening. So looks like she does have a plan but looks like I will only get to know, what I need to know, when I need to know it.

Not sure where we go from here

Haven't posted in a real long time. Last time I posted we were about to have an adult weekend of hardcore FLR and kinky fun. Well we had it and it was great but then the wheels kind of fell off of the bus that is our relationship. I really don't know what exactly happened but my wife just stopped leading or anything in terms of FLR. It really hurt and not sure how to say that better.

In the absence of flr, we have really really been struggling and fighting. It has been an incredibly rough month. A couple times she had made passing comments about wanting to get back to it. Then we were talking and she said she doesn't know what caused things to go so wrong between us. I pointed out that we started struggling when she stopped. She thought about it, you could see the wheels turning, and looked at me and said I was right.

Since that conversation she has really been focused on our getting back to it. Asking what it would take and such. Frankly, I am scared about our going back to it and the same thing happening. The last month has been so bad and I really was hurt when things just stopped. We finally seem to be functioning again (not as an flr just a relationship) and not just fighting so the thought that we could start this whole cycle again, you know is scary.

My wife points out that we both function better when we are actively functioning in a female le
d relationship. And I really agree with her. So we are discussing it. I have told her I need a lot more structure and commitment and follow through on her part. And then talking about what we would do differently. I don't know where this will lead but at least we are discussing it

Take Your Pants Off Now!

That's what my wife said as we were watching television last night. I quickly complied to her order and laid back down. My wife quickly started smacking my cock and balls...hard. I am kind of a wimp when it comes to my cock and balls being hit so I was quickly yelling. She reprimanded me to be quiet but I really couldn't. She went and got a pair of her dirty panties and shoved them in my mouth. "There that will keep you quiet."

She continued to beat my cock and balls for the next half hour then decided that she wanted for me to rub her legs. So I quickly went at it and started to rub her legs. A couple times she would look back and if I was starting to get soft she would smack me again until I got hard again (obviously my cock and balls feel differently then I do about being hit).

A little while latter she came back up and started playing with my cock. She kept bringing me right to the edge and I would have to tell her I was close and she would stop. She did this for awhile and then decided she needed to use her Hitachi without my help, I just had to lay there with my erection raging and her panties in my mouth.

Finally, she decided it was time for sex. She rode me telling me how I would be cleaning her up after and how yummy it was going to be (UGH! I wouldn't say that). Then telling me that at some point she was going to call me today and tell me to get an pee cube and to suck on it and then have a glass of water with two pee cubes to chase it down. And how the next chance I would get to cum would be Friday.

And yes she did make me clean up my mess after I was done.

Whilly Nilly

Last weekend my wife told me she had decided to lock me up for the week while she was gone. Every time we had some alone time she reiterated how I was going to be locked and she was taking her vibrator on her trip and cumming as much as she wanted...UGH!

She was sick yesterday and I wondered if she was going to remember or forget. I went back and forth on whether to remind her (too be clear I would not have cum without her permission) or not. But knowing that I am submissive to her I bucked up and did the right thing as asked about it. She said no, she decided with it being just me and our son that it was probably best for me not to be locked up.

This morning as she was getting ready to leave. I was sitting in our tub reading, she came over and gave me a kiss and said go ahead you can be whilly nilly (meaning I can cum as often and as much as I want) while I am gone. WOOOO HOOO! Of course then she said because when I get back things are going to be changing, she then snickered and walked out.

Calm before the Storm

My wife had such a good time with the rope and tormenting me on Saturday that she decided that she wanted to do it again last night. After she had me bound up and was having her fun she paused and looked me in the eyes and said that I should consider this week to be the calm before the storm. You see she is leaving tomorrow for a work conference and will not be back until Friday night.

I asked her what she meant and she just said " I have plans and a lot of things are going to be changing. And you should prepare yourself because it is going to be very hard on you." I am really excited and nervous to see where she wants to take our relationship. More and more we are getting back to where we were a few months ago when things were really clicking. We both want to go a lot farther down the rabbit hole and it sounds like she is going to start pushing that.

I screwed up

Last night we were suppose to have a big scene and then we had planned another scene for tonight not as intense but would be a lot of fun. But before any play we had family activities planned. So we rushed out to have dinner before all of his activities. We decided with the craziness we would switch the scenes between nights.
I relaxed for a little while and then met them for the family night. My wife told me she was getting a headache and then later on said she was getting tired. The thing is we have a really bad habit of getting tired or just life getting in the way. So I got cranky...really, really cranky.
So nothing ended up happening except me getting another entry in the behavior modification plan notebook (UGH) and a stern lecture. And I did not get unlocked either :-( On the upside, I didn't get unlocked and my wife remained firmly in control.
On the upside I was told me no matter what we were playing tonight.

Give me the key

My wife and I have been discussing how we intend on ramping things up and going farther. She decided she wanted to meet for lunch and I made the suggestion that maybe I should lock myself up and give her the key at lunch. She LOVED the idea and as she came in to the restaurant she stuck her hand out and I knew exactly what she was expecting so I handed over the key.

I will say when she had me regularly locked up I was use to it. But right now it is back to being uncomfortable. But I will live.

No Device Denial

I have not cum in the last week and I am getting pretty desperate. We had talked about a lot of sex last week but that stomach bug really made that a non-starter. The thing is my wife hasn't locked me up which in a way makes it worse and even more frustrating. I think when I am suppose to be denied having a device works better because there is a constant reminder and I don't know it is just better.

I spoke with my wife about it this morning and she said she knew I was getting pretty desperate because of a couple of incidents the last couple of days. I said don't you think you should have done something about it. She just snickered and walked away.

Sick

Damn it! My wife is off every other Friday and we had agreed that on those mornings she would take our son to school and then we would have some play before I started working. Today she was suppose to try out her new rodeo harness and fuck me hard and make me her bitch.

All week I have been slaving around the house getting everything done for her. But at the same time I have been fighting a stomach bug. We were suppose to have sex a couple of times and those were cancelled. Last night I had to give up the ghost and tell her I still had the stomach bug and there was no way we could follow through on our game plan.

Damn you stomach bug!

Moving Back into a Normal Routine

My in-laws were visiting this past weekend, which as I have said always makes my wife more shall we say demanding (others might say bitchy). And this weekend was definitely not the exception, she had me running around constantly. I think with her now having the dominant role in our relationship she really enjoys exerting it when her parents are around.

I was told I was getting sex last night and that it was going to be a good one (no ruined or clean-up). I was damn excited because I woke up yesterday extremely horny and was climbing the walls.Unfortunately as the day went I started feeling worse and worse with an ear ache and sore throat. I finally had to throw in the towel and ask for a rain check (I was that miserable) which my wife agreed too. So hopefully tonight!

I have gotten almost all of my chores done for today so hopefully there won't be much going into the Behavior Modification notebook. She has actively been using it again and the balance is going up. Not looking forward to settling up on that. 

I expect that this week we will be a lot more back in our routine. Chores, shaving her legs and massaging coconut oil into her legs and then orally servicing her at night . Maintenance spanking on Thursday night and  this Friday is her Friday off so expect she will be fucking my ass (our new game plan is that we do this on her Friday's off).

The Wife is Planning

Last night my wife shared with me how excited she is for next week. She has been planning since our break she has just been piling all the laundry in the spare bedroom. It is a mountain and guess who gets to deal with it all?

She, also, told me that I am getting locked back up immediately when I get home and to not be expected to get to cum for a long time. And that I should plan on having a very sore tongue from all the oral she is expecting. Not that there won't be a lot of fucking going on because she told me next Friday she is going to fuck me hard and long while being locked up.

So I guess next week will be an interesting time especially since I am so out of the routine.

Birthday Week Continues

Last night was hot! I didn't get my birthday blow job yet but another hand job last night. My wife started talking about her plans for the 21 days of lock down. She is planning on cumming every night....fucking my ass with me being locked. She wants to see if she can make me cum just from anal. And of course if anything dribbles out how I will be eating it.

Honestly her describing it was definitely getting me turned on but it was really getting her going. She was really getting worked up thinking about it. As I got close she would stop, that  was driving me crazy. I really did not want a ruined one and she was getting close. I came so hard I would have hit my face if my hand hadn't been there. She just giggled at this.

She then pulled out her vibrator and came really quick. She just kept yelling about "how fucking hot that was!" I think I am going to die during this 21 day diet and lock down.

Doldrums Fading Away

The weather here is heating up, today will be in the 60's and then 70's tomorrow. As you all have read my wife and I have had a lot going on her dealing  with her meniere's and me with work and of course both with the pre-holiday stress. So we had agreed to put things on hold until the New Year.

But I have gotten through all of my work issues and we have pretty much gotten all of the Christmas shopping done. And my wife is feeling a lot better, so much so she has been very vocal about not enjoying the break. So I asked her if she wanted to go back on Monday (we are very busy this weekend), she was very quick to say YES! And sounded very relieved.

She said she still has something special planned for New Year's Day but just feels that we really work better with her leading, chastity and the kink.

Thoughts in Chastity

I know that there are a lot of people out there that go for long stretches in chastity. I don't have any idea how they do it. I was able to cum on Saturday and then locked down so today is day  5, yesterday I walked around feeling like I had blue balls all day. This morning I woke up at about 5am with my cock trying to break out of it's metal cage. I have been busy with work this morning so hadn't really noticed anything but just got up to get some coffee and WOW, the blue balls are back.

On the upside, I am scheduled for a cum tonight, but unfortunately do not think I will be allowed to have sex with my wonderful wife as it is that time of the month for her. She has been sick so I doubt she has anything special planned but I asked her and she that she still planned on my cumming tonight. Which is a good thing since her parents arrive tomorrow so I assume I will be back in lock down until at least when they leave on Sunday.

Play Tonight!

Last night I went to my wife and said that I think I have been doing really good with the changes and have been trying really hard to be mindful of her. As such I said I would really like for us to have some play time. She said she would think about it.

Today I asked when she was locking me up again. She responded tonight after we play and have sex!!!! Bonus plan! Of course I had for some fun on Sunday to but it isn't my place to say. I have been unlocked for a couple of days but have not gotten to cum, to me that is harder then being locked and not getting to cum.

And another bit of progress, I asked when I was getting out. She responded she is torn on whether she unlocks me before her family gets here or if she keeps me locked the entire time they are here. In the past she has never been open to keeping me locked when either of our families were around. Now the fact that she is even considering it is a big step (of course she could just be teasing).

Frankly, she never wants to have sex when her parents are staying with us. So I won't be getting to cum so I would rather stay locked. But it is her decision.

To be in full disclosure, my wife does not read these posts before I make them. So they are my unfiltered thoughts but she does read them (I give the posts to read after they are up), so the post may have some influence in her decision.

Asking her why?

We have been talking about the possibility of changing our relationship to female led for what seems like forever. It is funny the way we actually decided to move forward with it. We were at a meeting with a doctor and it came out that she wanted everything done her way. It was kind of an off the cuff comment (and probably a realization for her). We didn't talk anymore about it that day but it kind of was the 800lbs elephant in the room. A couple of days later I bump her through g-chat and asked if she really meant wanting control? She said yeah she thought she did. So we spent a couple of weeks talking through it and what it would mean. 

During our little speed bump the other night we had some great discussions, I asked her about why she thought this new relationship would be good for us. She told me that she thought we would have more focus and direction in our relationship. She is always more focused on getting things done and I guess you could say given my chance I am lazy.Then she talked about how it will give us structure and we will help with how we relate to each other.

Then we went on to discuss chastity and her wanting me locked up. Because to be frank I understand why guys get something out of it but not really sure about the woman. She explained that the control is really appealing but also that it will give me focus I will do the things that I need to do. She said you will just do what I want to do because it is what I want and will not have to worry about whether it will mean you get to cum because you will be locked up. I do have to say that my me ache in my cage.