What a morning

Last night my wife after I gave her a big orgasm with my tongue, she gave me another ruined orgasm. My balls have been really bothering me and though it wasn't a relief to my current level of frustration it helped with the ball pain. And yes I had to eat it again (and there was a lot) but again since it wasn't ruined I didn't mind. Then she dragged me into the bathroom and pissed a really nasty piss into my mouth (apparently she was really dehydrated and had been drinking really strong tea all night). She found my chocking really amusing. I came back in to her using her vibrator for a second orgasm, she had me fighting to get me tongue in around her vibrator, again really amusing her.

This morning I snuggled up and pressed my cage against her. We then made out like a bunch of high school kids. At that I suggested maybe we go in to work a little late. And maybe we could get up and I would go prep myself and when I was ready she could come down and peg me. Then I could give her an orgasm and then we could take a tub together and I would shave her legs. After which we could get ready and have a nice lunch and head to work.

At first she thought it was a ploy to get out of the cage but when I told no I did not expect it. We had talked about her starting to peg me when I was still locked. Once she was comfortable with that she was good to go. Once the morning routine was through I went down to the basement and prepared myself. My wife expects me to be one hundred percent clean when she pegs me. When I was good I called her and asked for her to give me five minutes. She said "ok" and I went and grabbed our neoprene gas mask and got it on and climbed into our sling.

She came down and said how much she liked finding me in the hood and started to do some breathe play. Then she grabbed a glove and started lubing my up and got on her harness and cock. Wow, it was an incredible time...she really pounded the crap out of me. It felt so good and was such an incredible experience, I am not sure how to express it but when she pegs me I just feel so submissive to her and being locked and knowing I was going to be allowed to cum through penile stimulation was mind blowing. She kept playing with the cage and the hood's hose and was really into it. I kept telling her how much I wanted to be her dirty bitch, and she kept saying you already are. I really thought I was going to cum but it didn't happen but it felt so incredible.

She stopped and said get my harness off me so I took the hood off and got the harness off. She went over to our liberator  and waited for me to climb between her legs (she didn't wait long). She was so wet and ready again it did not take long.

My wife kept asking if I really enjoyed it and I was like "God, YES!" I explained that when she pegs me I just feel so incredibly submissive to her. Then I turned the question because I know she is not able to cum from it (we have tried) why she likes it? Her reply was the power she feels when doing it and the dominance over me. She then said she liked it even more with the cage and that the cage made those feelings so much stronger. The rest of the morning went the way it was described above. We did have a lot of interesting discussions about where we are recently and maybe I we do a post about it some time.

No relief in sight

My lovely wife is definitely ramping things up. Yesterday morning we were both off and she said go get the penis board and the thin rope we use with it. Below is a picture of the penis board

She then proceeded to amuse herself tying my cock down and abusing it. Then she went and grabbed a bunch of clothes pins and clips and amused herself further. Then she untied me and started to strock me and it felt wonderful. As I started to get close to cumming I asked if I was allowed to cum. She just started laughing and saying "nope!" I quickly pointed out that we haven't had sex since last Tuesday and my last release was Thursday. She said "yeah she knew but that I wouldn't be cumming anytime soon." Then she explained that I would not be cumming for another two weeks and that I would be locked the entire time. BLINK..BLINK. I have never gone longer then a week and then I was climbing the walls. She said yeah it will be good character building for you. She said she planned on ruined orgasms and maybe trying to milk me. 

And she went back to her project at hand of ruining my orgasm. On and on she would bring me right to the edge and stop. I asked what happened if I had an accident. At that she slapped my balls hard and said "that but only harder." Finally, she got me right to the edge and let go about 30 seconds later it started to dribble out. UGH! We knew it was a ruined one because I was willing for her to feed me my mess. Something after I cum, I am always resistant to doing. She said that making me eat it when I am willing is not nearly as fun.

Settling Up

The other night my wife looked at me and said "we are going to be settling up tonight. How many do you think you have coming?" I looked at her and said "I, honestly, think I have been pretty good." She looked at me and laughed and said "no, you have been disrespectful and have used curse words and you know I hate that. So how many do you think you have coming?"

"I guess, um, eight." Again this was meet with laugther, " I was thinking twelve." I wasn't going to argue with her but knew this was going to be hell. I found her punishment spoon (it is a really really thick solid wooden spoon we found just for this type of correction) and asked if I could walk the dogs before hand.

When I got back with the dogs I went upstairs and she said alright drop your pants and get across my lap. As she delivered all twelve strokes I was lectured about my tone and cursing. It has been several days and my butt still hurts. After she had me thank her for helping me to improve and then had me crawl in between her legs and use my tongue to please her. Then it was time to get a condom on (I cringed as that usually means I will be cleaning up my mess), after she came she said that I didn't need to cum. I begged her to please let me and luckily she was kind and did.

Afterwards she climbed off me and said "I will give you a pass tonight but from now on you will be eating your mess. That was definitely a Thank God and UGH moment all rolled into one.

Just so we clear we are not having sex tonight

Yesterday, I was at the point of going crazy. I had blue balls and walking just hurt, it has been awhile since I came. I had installed the Sportsheet restraint system on our bed and my wife decided we would make use of it. So I was restrained and she started smacking my cock and then hitting my balls....OUCH! Remember blue balls. There were definitely also ice cubes being shoved into :ahem: places.

Then she climbed on top of me and I could feel how wet she was. Smacking me around clearly worked for her. The only problem was it had been so long I had no staying power, as I was begging her for a moment to recoup I hit the point of no return and begged her to keep going and for it not to be a ruined one. I am happy to say she continued and it was a monumental one.

But I came before her so once I was done (it was one of my longer releases) she had me get into the shower sitting on the floor with bended head and pissed out all the cum I had just inserted.

She said we were going to have sex again tonight. She was out getting her nails done as I folded all of the laundry tonight. She came home and got into bed and I thought we were good to go. Went over to give her oral to pleasure her, when she said she was cold and I needed to wait. About a half hour later I asked if she was ready and she said yes. I got to the foot of the bed and strip down to my panties (she now wants me in panties to remember my place) and said I hoped seeing me doing licky in only the panties would work for her (it did).

Three quarters of the way to orgasm she pulled my head up and said she changed her mind and there would be no sex. I went back to doing my business.  She had a huge orgasm. At the end I tried for sex and she said no. I am so desperate that I asked for a ruined one, to which she replied she was going to drink her tea and if she had to pee! she would do it on me while I played with my business.

Unfortunately, she later said I don't have to pee and I am tired so I am going to sleep but when I wake up I am taking you to the bathroom and pissing on you whether you are asleep or awake.

So i am trying to stay awake until that happens.

Getting Back on Track

Long time without posting but there really hasn't been a lot to say in terms of FLR or chastity. But I think there have been a lot of good conversations about our needs and what each of us needs for an FLR to work.

I know a lot of people that want FLRs say that BDSM and kink is really not their motivation. And I tried to think that way but made clear I would like for it to be. I learned that it is not a want for me but a need. I really really love my wife to be in control and making the decisions and my serving her but I need the BDSM & humiliation parts to for it to be satisfying for me. There was a blog post that was about dominance versus abuse but really captured the idea that some submissive husbands need these things for the FLR relationship to be fufilling (it can be found here: http://dommewife.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-fine-line-between-domination-and.html ). My wife was a little taken aback when I showed it to her because of the abuse discussion. I had to explain that I just felt the post captured exactly what I felt that I needed these aspects and it wasn't a simple want.

My wife has really been pushing for us to get back to it. But last week really it just wasn't going to work out but I agreed to start today. Then I really hadn't heard anything more about expectations or anything. So last night I told her it was up to her if we went back to it. I couldn't emotionally get excited for it and be let down again. All she said was ok and then again I voiced some of my frustration and her response was I have given it a lot of thought and I know what I want (not telling me if we were going forward or what her plan was).

This morning I woke up with her going through my drawers and pulling out a pair of panties that I was suppose to wear today. Later in the day I thanked her and she told me to go was out the pee ice trays and that she planned on refilling them this evening. And then she told me I should plan on being in the body bag this evening. So looks like she does have a plan but looks like I will only get to know, what I need to know, when I need to know it.

Work in Progress

We are still talking about things, my wife is very determined for us to get back to our FLR. And honestly I would like to as well. I have been really depressed and overwhelmed lately and I think it is just the lack of guidance if that makes any sense. But we need to take this slowly and figure out what will work for us and how we can keep it from becoming so routine that you stop doing it.

As a way of ensuring follow through my wife has added activities like maintenance and punishment spankings. And Wednesdays are suppose to be our maintenance nights. She brought it up several times during the day and then again in the evening. I really just expected it to be talk but once our son was asleep she said we were doing it. I resisted a bit but she was firm and today I am glad she did.

Today, I went and made the bed, prepared her tea and dealt with all of the laundry. Things that were routine in our FLR but since the issues have just gone away. I hope she sees it as my being willing for us to continue to figure out how we can get back to it.

I am away for the weekend (she is not amused about my missing Mother's Day) but I am hopeful we can discuss further before I leave. But we will see, still don't know where we go from here.

Not sure where we go from here

Haven't posted in a real long time. Last time I posted we were about to have an adult weekend of hardcore FLR and kinky fun. Well we had it and it was great but then the wheels kind of fell off of the bus that is our relationship. I really don't know what exactly happened but my wife just stopped leading or anything in terms of FLR. It really hurt and not sure how to say that better.

In the absence of flr, we have really really been struggling and fighting. It has been an incredibly rough month. A couple times she had made passing comments about wanting to get back to it. Then we were talking and she said she doesn't know what caused things to go so wrong between us. I pointed out that we started struggling when she stopped. She thought about it, you could see the wheels turning, and looked at me and said I was right.

Since that conversation she has really been focused on our getting back to it. Asking what it would take and such. Frankly, I am scared about our going back to it and the same thing happening. The last month has been so bad and I really was hurt when things just stopped. We finally seem to be functioning again (not as an flr just a relationship) and not just fighting so the thought that we could start this whole cycle again, you know is scary.

My wife points out that we both function better when we are actively functioning in a female le
d relationship. And I really agree with her. So we are discussing it. I have told her I need a lot more structure and commitment and follow through on her part. And then talking about what we would do differently. I don't know where this will lead but at least we are discussing it

Take Your Pants Off Now!

That's what my wife said as we were watching television last night. I quickly complied to her order and laid back down. My wife quickly started smacking my cock and balls...hard. I am kind of a wimp when it comes to my cock and balls being hit so I was quickly yelling. She reprimanded me to be quiet but I really couldn't. She went and got a pair of her dirty panties and shoved them in my mouth. "There that will keep you quiet."

She continued to beat my cock and balls for the next half hour then decided that she wanted for me to rub her legs. So I quickly went at it and started to rub her legs. A couple times she would look back and if I was starting to get soft she would smack me again until I got hard again (obviously my cock and balls feel differently then I do about being hit).

A little while latter she came back up and started playing with my cock. She kept bringing me right to the edge and I would have to tell her I was close and she would stop. She did this for awhile and then decided she needed to use her Hitachi without my help, I just had to lay there with my erection raging and her panties in my mouth.

Finally, she decided it was time for sex. She rode me telling me how I would be cleaning her up after and how yummy it was going to be (UGH! I wouldn't say that). Then telling me that at some point she was going to call me today and tell me to get an pee cube and to suck on it and then have a glass of water with two pee cubes to chase it down. And how the next chance I would get to cum would be Friday.

And yes she did make me clean up my mess after I was done.

Two Great Nights

I have gotten to have sex and cum the last two nights, I am feeling very lucky! Especially since on Sunday when we were having sex after my wife came she said "ok, we are done." And I hadn't cum yet, luckily she was just kidding. And the added bonus was she did not make me clean her up afterwards.

Then yesterday since she hadn't locked me up I bumped her and asked if she wanted to have sex. She came back with an affirmative. After we got our kid to sleep I went about our usual routine of my kneeling on the floor next to her and putting coconut oil on her beautiful legs. She then said that she didn't think I was going to get sex but she wanted oral. Boy that sounded disappointing but it would have been her decision and she makes the decisions. She had a change of heart though saying that since she had agreed we could have sex but I had to get a condom (and we don't use condoms for birth control so it could only mean on thing).

The sex was fantastic but the second I came she jumped off of me, pulled the condom off and said open up. She poured some of it into my mouth and said close your mouth. So there I was laying with the condom dangling out and my mess in my mouth. She went back over to her side of the bed and pulled out her Hitachi and had an amazing orgasm as she looked at me and laughed. When she was finished she told me to swallow and go get cleaned up.

Gift

After a long week as a single parent I am really happy for my wife to be back home. And I was so excited about the gift I had got her I decided to give it to her last night. So once we got our child down and she was relaxing in bed I got on my knees and gave it to her. She absolutely loved it and was excited. Here is a picture of the gift.

Believe it or not I found it on Blue Nile, they call it key to my heart but I said we both know what it is really the key to.

I am at a seminar all weekend so really not a lot going on. But I will say since she has gotten home she is way more bitchy no asking just telling. I commented on it and she said she was happy I noticed. Can I just say I love my wife.

Remembering My Place

Yesterday morning my wife bumped me yesterday and asked if I was wearing pantyhose. I posted awhile back that she requires me to wear pantyhose to remember my place. Unfortunately I wasn't, with her being away I didn't think it was necessary. She instructed me to get them on immediately and I am sure I have gotten another demerit in the BMP notebook. 

I asked her what her plans were once the warm weather came (as spring is around the corner). She immediately responded that I would be wearing panties all summer. As she definitely wants me to always remember my place in our relationship.

Then this morning I got a text saying I think you are thirsty go get a peecube and some water and send me a picture. Unfortunately, I had to go into the office this morning so I explained that I would as soon as I was home. Got home about an hour ago and have made my drink and have just finished it. Ugh! But at least she didn't make me suck on it like a popsicle. Below is the photo that I sent her.

I really am loving these little things my wife has been doing to keep me in a submissive mindset. I can't tell you the effect it has on me each time she has done it. I have thanked her and told her how these things send me to the moon. 

Long Distance Control

Last Friday to keep my mind on her this week my wife came home and peed in a glass (and it was a smelly pee). Then she called me over and told me to take it and pour it into a couple of ice trays we have and put them in the outside freezer. She told me that she may or may not call me this week and tell me to make myself a drink with her special ice cubes or she might even tell me to just suck on one and think about her.

She made a lot of ice cubes but so far hasn't called or texted me. But I will say it is an effective way of keeping her on my mind.

Whilly Nilly

Last weekend my wife told me she had decided to lock me up for the week while she was gone. Every time we had some alone time she reiterated how I was going to be locked and she was taking her vibrator on her trip and cumming as much as she wanted...UGH!

She was sick yesterday and I wondered if she was going to remember or forget. I went back and forth on whether to remind her (too be clear I would not have cum without her permission) or not. But knowing that I am submissive to her I bucked up and did the right thing as asked about it. She said no, she decided with it being just me and our son that it was probably best for me not to be locked up.

This morning as she was getting ready to leave. I was sitting in our tub reading, she came over and gave me a kiss and said go ahead you can be whilly nilly (meaning I can cum as often and as much as I want) while I am gone. WOOOO HOOO! Of course then she said because when I get back things are going to be changing, she then snickered and walked out.

Gift

With all of the changes we have going on and some things my wife wants I really wanted to get her a special gift. I found exactly what I was looking for and ordered it today and had it shipped (once I give it to her I will let you all know what it is but can't ruin the surprise ;-) ).

My wife got very sick late last night with some sort of stomach flu (completely different then the one I had). So she was in bed all day. I am not suppose to buy things without her approval so I had to go up and tell her I bought something but could not tell her what it was because I wanted it to be a surprise. I with all the changes we have going on I wanted a symbol to acknowledge it and found it.

I really, really hope she likes it because I am really excited about it.

Calm before the Storm

My wife had such a good time with the rope and tormenting me on Saturday that she decided that she wanted to do it again last night. After she had me bound up and was having her fun she paused and looked me in the eyes and said that I should consider this week to be the calm before the storm. You see she is leaving tomorrow for a work conference and will not be back until Friday night.

I asked her what she meant and she just said " I have plans and a lot of things are going to be changing. And you should prepare yourself because it is going to be very hard on you." I am really excited and nervous to see where she wants to take our relationship. More and more we are getting back to where we were a few months ago when things were really clicking. We both want to go a lot farther down the rabbit hole and it sounds like she is going to start pushing that.

Last Night

My wife changed the plans again last night. We were waiting for our kid to finish watching his show when she looked over and said "Go turn everything off in the basement (I had turned the heater on for our playroom)." So I got a little disappointed but wasn't going to screw up again.

Got the kid to sleep and she said she was taking a shower and to get the rope out. After she got out of the shower she told me to take my clothes off. She secured my hands behind my back and said she needed to get the keys. I laid back down in our bed and waited. She came back and let me out and she started to smack her cock around and then to play with it.

She played with it and smacked it for a long time and was driving me crazy. She said she wasn't sure if she was going to let me cum or if she was going to ruin it. At one point she smacked my cock really hard and said "Be quiet, you are here for my enjoyment and I am enjoying playing with your cock so just lay there and don't bother me."

After a long time of taking me to the edge too many times to account, when she let go I felt myself start to just ooze out....UGH! I begged her to grab it and not let it just be a ruined. She was feeling kind and grabbed it and saved the day. Afterwards she left me tied up in my mess and took out her vibrator and had an incredible orgasm. She then told me it was a good one and untied me and said go clean up the mess.

I am still unlocked and really tender down there, not sure why I am so tender honestly. My wife was quick to point out this morning that I am not to be touching myself.

***Update***Not sure what is going on but I am horny as hell right now. Would have thought last night would have gotten this under control at least a bit. Not sure if because it was what I would call a half ruined or what is going on. I told my wife and I commented about the half ruined. Her response was that wasn't her intention but was still amusing.

I screwed up

Last night we were suppose to have a big scene and then we had planned another scene for tonight not as intense but would be a lot of fun. But before any play we had family activities planned. So we rushed out to have dinner before all of his activities. We decided with the craziness we would switch the scenes between nights.
I relaxed for a little while and then met them for the family night. My wife told me she was getting a headache and then later on said she was getting tired. The thing is we have a really bad habit of getting tired or just life getting in the way. So I got cranky...really, really cranky.
So nothing ended up happening except me getting another entry in the behavior modification plan notebook (UGH) and a stern lecture. And I did not get unlocked either :-( On the upside, I didn't get unlocked and my wife remained firmly in control.
On the upside I was told me no matter what we were playing tonight.

Pfbt....Pfbt....Pfbt...

Yesterday my wife wrote me and told me to make sure the trimmer was charged because she wanted me to prune her genital area. So after we got our son down she laid out a towel and waited for me to get the trimmer. I have to be clear I hate the job because I am always terrified I am going to cut her. But I got the job done.

Afterwards we went into the bathroom and she had me get down in the shower as she wanted to mark her property. So she pissed all over my head, this use to be a nightly ritual but we have gotten away from it. She has now said she thinks it is important for us to go back to.

Now for the title, after I got cleaned up and she showered she came in and wanted her nightly oral. So I crawled between her legs and started licking. Pfbt...Pfbt...Pfbt...although she showered there was still a ton of pubic hair trimmings...UGH! I soldiered on and she came really quick (she had been checking out her new cocks and she was playing with the one that has a bullet for her the wearer that got her perky). After I finished I had to go wash my mouth out because of all the hair.

I asked her if it worked knowing that I am laying here all frustrated and you just came. She looked over, giggled and said "Yes, it really does something for me."

New cocks!

My wife and I thought it was time for her to get some new cocks, dildos that is. We ordered three new ones on I want to say Tuesday. When we were out to lunch today and I gave her the key to the jailbird I asked her if she had hear anything (like that they had shipped), she said "no."

Well they came this afternoon! We are both very excited.

Give me the key

My wife and I have been discussing how we intend on ramping things up and going farther. She decided she wanted to meet for lunch and I made the suggestion that maybe I should lock myself up and give her the key at lunch. She LOVED the idea and as she came in to the restaurant she stuck her hand out and I knew exactly what she was expecting so I handed over the key.

I will say when she had me regularly locked up I was use to it. But right now it is back to being uncomfortable. But I will live.