Getting Back on Track

Long time without posting but there really hasn't been a lot to say in terms of FLR or chastity. But I think there have been a lot of good conversations about our needs and what each of us needs for an FLR to work.

I know a lot of people that want FLRs say that BDSM and kink is really not their motivation. And I tried to think that way but made clear I would like for it to be. I learned that it is not a want for me but a need. I really really love my wife to be in control and making the decisions and my serving her but I need the BDSM & humiliation parts to for it to be satisfying for me. There was a blog post that was about dominance versus abuse but really captured the idea that some submissive husbands need these things for the FLR relationship to be fufilling (it can be found here: http://dommewife.blogspot.com/2014/05/the-fine-line-between-domination-and.html ). My wife was a little taken aback when I showed it to her because of the abuse discussion. I had to explain that I just felt the post captured exactly what I felt that I needed these aspects and it wasn't a simple want.

My wife has really been pushing for us to get back to it. But last week really it just wasn't going to work out but I agreed to start today. Then I really hadn't heard anything more about expectations or anything. So last night I told her it was up to her if we went back to it. I couldn't emotionally get excited for it and be let down again. All she said was ok and then again I voiced some of my frustration and her response was I have given it a lot of thought and I know what I want (not telling me if we were going forward or what her plan was).

This morning I woke up with her going through my drawers and pulling out a pair of panties that I was suppose to wear today. Later in the day I thanked her and she told me to go was out the pee ice trays and that she planned on refilling them this evening. And then she told me I should plan on being in the body bag this evening. So looks like she does have a plan but looks like I will only get to know, what I need to know, when I need to know it.

Two Great Nights

I have gotten to have sex and cum the last two nights, I am feeling very lucky! Especially since on Sunday when we were having sex after my wife came she said "ok, we are done." And I hadn't cum yet, luckily she was just kidding. And the added bonus was she did not make me clean her up afterwards.

Then yesterday since she hadn't locked me up I bumped her and asked if she wanted to have sex. She came back with an affirmative. After we got our kid to sleep I went about our usual routine of my kneeling on the floor next to her and putting coconut oil on her beautiful legs. She then said that she didn't think I was going to get sex but she wanted oral. Boy that sounded disappointing but it would have been her decision and she makes the decisions. She had a change of heart though saying that since she had agreed we could have sex but I had to get a condom (and we don't use condoms for birth control so it could only mean on thing).

The sex was fantastic but the second I came she jumped off of me, pulled the condom off and said open up. She poured some of it into my mouth and said close your mouth. So there I was laying with the condom dangling out and my mess in my mouth. She went back over to her side of the bed and pulled out her Hitachi and had an amazing orgasm as she looked at me and laughed. When she was finished she told me to swallow and go get cleaned up.

Remembering My Place

Yesterday morning my wife bumped me yesterday and asked if I was wearing pantyhose. I posted awhile back that she requires me to wear pantyhose to remember my place. Unfortunately I wasn't, with her being away I didn't think it was necessary. She instructed me to get them on immediately and I am sure I have gotten another demerit in the BMP notebook. 

I asked her what her plans were once the warm weather came (as spring is around the corner). She immediately responded that I would be wearing panties all summer. As she definitely wants me to always remember my place in our relationship.

Then this morning I got a text saying I think you are thirsty go get a peecube and some water and send me a picture. Unfortunately, I had to go into the office this morning so I explained that I would as soon as I was home. Got home about an hour ago and have made my drink and have just finished it. Ugh! But at least she didn't make me suck on it like a popsicle. Below is the photo that I sent her.

I really am loving these little things my wife has been doing to keep me in a submissive mindset. I can't tell you the effect it has on me each time she has done it. I have thanked her and told her how these things send me to the moon. 

Locked Again

Last night after we got the kid down, had me massage her legs and then she said alright it's time. She made me put on a condom which made me worry about needing to clean up afterwards, although I was unlocked I have not been given a chance to cum since Monday so I knew there would be a lot.

She started playing with me and telling me all she has planned for this week. Good it was hot, of course she is suppose to have her period so although she has a lot of hot things planned, there will be an added level of grossness. Which at the time will not be hot but I am embarrassed to say was really hot last night and thinking about it now has me straining against my cage.

I got to the edge a couple of times and asked her to back off so I could savor the experience. Then she said "I never said you were definitely getting a good one!" Oh No!!! Well she edge me a couple more times but then she let me cum and boy did I explode.She just looked at the condom and just started giggling about how much there was. Yes, I will admit it I begged and begged to not have to do it. I talked about all of the disgusting things she has planned for my week and since it was our first day back couldn't we just skip it.

She looked at the amount of the load again and said "alright, go clean yourself up and get back in here. I am going to play with myself with the vibrator and you need to help and if it is not a good one what we talked about will seem easy." I rushed to the bathroom and cleanup and got back, she had already started. I went for her nipples as they always make it a good orgasm. Because she is so close to her period she said no because they were too sensitive. DAMN! So I started to play with her letting my hand lean against the vibrator and started talking about the things she had said to me.

She came and came hard. When she was done she started to say "DAMN YOU!" Apparently she thought without her nipples it would be difficult to make it such a good one. Well, the talking about the things she had planned really turned her on (She really gets into humiliating me and doing things that I find disgusting (which is hot for me too)). She said it really pushed her over.

A little while later she locked me down. Her current plan for release is Thursday but I asked her this morning to fuck my ass on Tuesday. We have never done this locked down and I am interested to see how that experience will be.

Released and Locked

Last night I had thought I would be allowed to have sex but was told you're not coming tonight but maybe tomorrow. Was a bit of let down but she makes the rules and I accepted it. My wife was off today and she was upstairs watching tv so I figured I should take a shot. I called her on the phone and asking for sex and surprisingly she said sure. I jumped at my chance and got upstairs before she changed her mind.

The dryer had just finished though so I quickly folded and put all of our laundry away. Went in and as we started, she said "I am not sure why I am doing this. What have you done that you deserve this?" Boy I was glad I just dealt with the laundry. After we were done she made me crawl between her legs and lick up my mess. That was really gross, the concept is always hotter before you cum.

Got cleaned up and went downstairs and got back to work. About 15 minutes later I got a call that I needed to be locked up (I had been on the honor system the last couple of days). So I went up and got locked into the Jailbird again.

After awhile I started having some self doubts about the FLR and some of the humiliating things she has been doing to me. I went up and kneeled next to her and asked if we could talk I said I was concerned again that she was just doing this because I wanted it and did it really interest her? Then I asked if she was able to respect me with some of the humiliating things she is doing to me (like making me clean up my mess). As I asked these questions she had a big smile on her face and said yes, all of this was really working for her and it is why she called me to be locked up and that yes, she loved and respected me and found the humiliating things she is putting me through hot.

Now I am back to being horny as hell and locked up so there is nothing I can do about it.