Self Doubt

I am sure by now people realize I am a glass is half empty type of guy. I have been filled with a lot of self doubt today. Is this the right thing for me? Am I nuts to want this? A lot is probably due to the stress we are dealing with, I am trying to adjust to going into the office part time and my wife is taking a class from home. We just don't do well with breaks in routine (I recognize all this is a change in routine but it has been working).

Then I walked out of the bedroom and my wife was grinning at me. As I put on my pantyhose and got dressed (yes, she makes me wear pantyhose. Panties didn't work for us. But she likes the way pantyhose change my mindset). I asked why she was grinning, she said she liked watching me put on pantyhose and knowing that I was locked up. All of this interaction reassured me and made it worked for me.

I really know that this is what I want but it is just a lot of adjusting. I hope I can push on through and I do not know that I have a choice as my wife is really taking to it. Tomorrow, there is a lot planned which will probably correct my self doubt...maintenance spanking and my wife expects to be serviced.

Released and Locked

Last night I had thought I would be allowed to have sex but was told you're not coming tonight but maybe tomorrow. Was a bit of let down but she makes the rules and I accepted it. My wife was off today and she was upstairs watching tv so I figured I should take a shot. I called her on the phone and asking for sex and surprisingly she said sure. I jumped at my chance and got upstairs before she changed her mind.

The dryer had just finished though so I quickly folded and put all of our laundry away. Went in and as we started, she said "I am not sure why I am doing this. What have you done that you deserve this?" Boy I was glad I just dealt with the laundry. After we were done she made me crawl between her legs and lick up my mess. That was really gross, the concept is always hotter before you cum.

Got cleaned up and went downstairs and got back to work. About 15 minutes later I got a call that I needed to be locked up (I had been on the honor system the last couple of days). So I went up and got locked into the Jailbird again.

After awhile I started having some self doubts about the FLR and some of the humiliating things she has been doing to me. I went up and kneeled next to her and asked if we could talk I said I was concerned again that she was just doing this because I wanted it and did it really interest her? Then I asked if she was able to respect me with some of the humiliating things she is doing to me (like making me clean up my mess). As I asked these questions she had a big smile on her face and said yes, all of this was really working for her and it is why she called me to be locked up and that yes, she loved and respected me and found the humiliating things she is putting me through hot.

Now I am back to being horny as hell and locked up so there is nothing I can do about it.