Gift

After a long week as a single parent I am really happy for my wife to be back home. And I was so excited about the gift I had got her I decided to give it to her last night. So once we got our child down and she was relaxing in bed I got on my knees and gave it to her. She absolutely loved it and was excited. Here is a picture of the gift.

Believe it or not I found it on Blue Nile, they call it key to my heart but I said we both know what it is really the key to.

I am at a seminar all weekend so really not a lot going on. But I will say since she has gotten home she is way more bitchy no asking just telling. I commented on it and she said she was happy I noticed. Can I just say I love my wife.

Gift

With all of the changes we have going on and some things my wife wants I really wanted to get her a special gift. I found exactly what I was looking for and ordered it today and had it shipped (once I give it to her I will let you all know what it is but can't ruin the surprise ;-) ).

My wife got very sick late last night with some sort of stomach flu (completely different then the one I had). So she was in bed all day. I am not suppose to buy things without her approval so I had to go up and tell her I bought something but could not tell her what it was because I wanted it to be a surprise. I with all the changes we have going on I wanted a symbol to acknowledge it and found it.

I really, really hope she likes it because I am really excited about it.

Getting Back

We are working on getting back to our routine. Last night we took a tub and I shaved her legs. Then we watched "Heat" with Sandra Bullock and Melissa McCarthy, which was very funny. Our son has a day off from all the snow and ice so he has been entertaining himself watching netflix, so I didn't have to make the bed. But got her tea made, laundry done and kitchen straightened up.

Doing ok with being locked up, yes it has only been since Saturday night but we haven't really done long term. I am horny as all get out but that is my normal state. During our tub last night after I was done shaving her my wife rubbed the cage with her feet. That just drove me absolutely crazy!

We had a good conversation through G-Chat today. Just reviewing where we are in our relationship, what we need to work on before the New Year. As I have said we really want to have this worked out where FLR is just how we are. I think in terms of FLR, we will be where we want to be. We are a little out of our groove because of last week but expect that to quickly be corrected. There are some areas that we need to make more of a focus and be consistent with. And we agreed that we both still interested and would focus more on.  It was a good conversation and I think that we are both on the same page and were happy with our progress.

Tonight will be low key because of Monday Night Football but we have big plans for tomorrow night so I am excited.

"You seem to be struggling"

As I said yesterday, I have just been trying to do what is expected of me. Keep my head down and get my chores done. And take care of everything. And let the rest work itself out.
My wife was stuck at work so I ended up dealing with homework and taking care of a lot of the things that she normally handles. When she came home she seemed pretty distant and wasn't talking very much to me.  I had her tea ready but wasn't able to meet her at the door like I normally do because of homework. I didn't get a thank you for all the stuff I just handled, of course I didn't go through it all because I figured it was just expected. In still learning my new place I guess I thought I would get a thank you or something. But looking back I agree I shouldn't have expected it. I should have just been glad I could make things easier since she was late. She ate dinner and we all watched TV.
When we got upstairs, I am not exactly sure what happened but she and our son had some issue. She came out and said you need to deal with him and put him to bed. I just said "ok." She then said she was going to sit in the tub and relax. I watched some tv with the kid and then put him to bed.
I guess you could say I was frustrated. I was trying to be responsive and get everything handled that I was suppose to but she just felt really distant, I guess it was a bad day but she didn't really communicate. Frustrated, I went in to the bathroom and asked to be excused so that I could go play the PS4. She said sure so off I went to try and just relax.
When I got back upstairs we had a quick chat and I sat back to read. About a half hour later, she said that when she was back downstairs she was noting in the Behavior Modification Plan notebook my going downstairs to play video games rather then be available to dry her off, as she wanted, after her tub (she didn't say anything when I asked, I was just suppose to realize I would be needed).  To be honest I hadn't even thought about it. I had been focused on all the tings I had done that were not even noticed. So I guess the punishment will teach me a lesson about mindfulness.
Then she said "You seemed to be struggling with the changes we are working on. So I think we should do the maintenance tonight to help you refocus." I was then told to get undressed. I quickly remember that the punishment implements she likes to use were in the basement. And told her so, figuring I'd be made to run down and get them. Instead she had me grab her hairbrush.
So yeah I got thrashed last night, not as bad as a punishment session but it still sucked. She helped me to remember my place and where I am suppose to be focused.

Self Doubt

I am sure by now people realize I am a glass is half empty type of guy. I have been filled with a lot of self doubt today. Is this the right thing for me? Am I nuts to want this? A lot is probably due to the stress we are dealing with, I am trying to adjust to going into the office part time and my wife is taking a class from home. We just don't do well with breaks in routine (I recognize all this is a change in routine but it has been working).

Then I walked out of the bedroom and my wife was grinning at me. As I put on my pantyhose and got dressed (yes, she makes me wear pantyhose. Panties didn't work for us. But she likes the way pantyhose change my mindset). I asked why she was grinning, she said she liked watching me put on pantyhose and knowing that I was locked up. All of this interaction reassured me and made it worked for me.

I really know that this is what I want but it is just a lot of adjusting. I hope I can push on through and I do not know that I have a choice as my wife is really taking to it. Tomorrow, there is a lot planned which will probably correct my self doubt...maintenance spanking and my wife expects to be serviced.

A look at my new life

So I am locked up again. I have been told release will be Friday, I am hoping knowing when I will get out will make it easier to cope and not get cranky.

I thought I would describe my night as it might give some view of the changes that have occurred. My wife is in a training class that she is doing from home but goes until 7pm. I went up stairs and folded and put away all of the laundry while I waited for her to finish. Once our son went to sleep, I walked the dogs for their final walk. When I got back I prepared a tub for my wife and I. And then I shaved her legs in the tub. Once we got out I gave her a light massage to her lower body. After I put coconut oil on her legs and feet. She then decided she was hungry so I ran downstairs to get her dinner and to clean up the kitchen.

Oh and in case you didn't think she did anything she made sure to smack my private parts for a good while. Yes, this is my new life.